living in the present <body>
Thursday, January 22, 2009 @ 7:23 PM

okaye i know i havent been updating for ages .
well alot have been happening though .
i have been staying back till 6.30 everyday . whether its for extra lessons or to help out for the cny deco . even so , after that i'll go do hmwork in canteen with rebecca rachel and jinny etc .
there have been hmwork though it isnt tons , but i still cant get use to it .
freakkk i think i got cough from si ming . nooooo its cny !
cant get sick otherwise cant eat goodies DD:
and footdrill has started once again !! hurray . thoguh i feel guilty i dont volunteer to try as a comander .
apparently i really dont know the commands well enough .
and ohya we were talking about it , the blue badges are gonna farewell from guides in 5 mnths ! DD:
i think i will cry like shit . like freak luh i cant believe it .
it has been how long since i just came into guides huh .
so before its our turn im gonna strive hard and do my best for guides !
oh gosh i really will miss them .
and i have no idea why i have been rather , sad .
not to the emo extend yet but still .
other than the blue badges farewell stuff , i have been thinking bout prime .
like really 8 years so far is no short time .
every corner of this school has got my memories in it . espacially the back of the playground .
yet i dont dare go near there anymore . but i guess before this yr ends i will take the chance .
afterall i wont leave this school without at least a picture of those memorable places .
then another thing i have been feel rather unhappy about is the friends that left me .
apparently the really good friends i had since primary school were either stupid or too smart .
they either had not make it back to sn sec or they went off for ip .
haiya not that i can control their attitue towards studies but at least a visit would be good .
just yesterday the chinese compo we gotta write was a sad incident and i wrote about p6 .
perhaprs i shouldnt have came back .
i should have scored lower .
the t mark i got was just over the border . just one lesss and i wont make it into sn .
or might as well i should have left everything behind and went off to san fans .
till now im still wondering why i didnt chose to migrate .
i made the worse desicion in my life .
i used to think i would have lost everything i had if i left .
come to think of it , though i stayed , i alrd lost eeverything that i was suppose to lose 2 years back .
sec 3 is gonna be a tough year for me . i cant afford to lag behind like sec 2 . i gotta go back to the sec 1 attitude .
i have been recalling min yi's words for encouragement but its myself i need to change.
i think i'll leave this blog behind . i will delete these posts and leave the url as it is cas i just changed it .
okaye then again perharps another day .
ahhh kimberlywakeup , stop dreaming in the emo world.
all that holds you back is that pathetic memory of yours.
just backspace all those and you are one new girl .



introduction
Song: a little too not over you
Designer: darkdegree
Inspiration: minty_peach

once upon a song
by David Archuleta

A Little Too Not Over You
It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, oooh, oooh, oooh
Oooooooh
Oh
Ooooh, oh

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do

I'm just a little too not over you

(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)